Imogen

So...
My little sister is ill. Again. And they've seen a specialist but it hasn't helped, and they are going to book an emergency appointment for her at the Doctors. 
And I'm not there.
I'm her big sister and I am over 150 miles away.
I'm not there to hold her hand when she gets scared and that damn well kills me.
I should be there.

In Paris with You

I thought I'd share my English teacher's favourite poem with you...

In Paris With You

Don't talk to me of love. I've had an earful
And I get tearful when I've downed a drink or two.
I'm one of your talking wounded.
I'm a hostage. I'm maroonded.
But I'm in Paris with you.

Yes I'm angry at the way I've been bamboozled
And resentful at the mess I've been through.
I admit I'm on the rebound
And I don't care where are we bound.
I'm in Paris with you.

Do you mind if we do not go to the Louvre
If we say sod off to sodding Notre Dame,
If we skip the Champs Elysées
And remain here in this sleazy

Old hotel room
Doing this and that
To what and whom
Learning who you are,
Learning what I am.

Don't talk to me of love. Let's talk of Paris,
The little bit of Paris in our view.
There's that crack across the ceiling
And the hotel walls are peeling
And I'm in Paris with you.

Don't talk to me of love. Let's talk of Paris.
I'm in Paris with the slightest thing you do.
I'm in Paris with your eyes, your mouth,
I'm in Paris with... all points south.
Am I embarrassing you?
I'm in Paris with you.

James Fenton

Happy :)

I'm feeling incredibly happy right now :)
I had another wonderful Saturday with my gentleman friend, and I also managed to spend time with my young friends and my 'baby brother'.
Everything is going pretty well, and I can barely remember the last time I was this happy.
All is good for a change :)

Perfect day.

I had a perfect day with George on Saturday :')
Also came home to find Frankenstein on the radio xD
And I downloaded Pride and Prejudice to my phone.

Just a perfect day.
Quiet.
But perfect.

Fireworks...

Amazing night watching the fireworks at Wicksteed last night with Amy, Em, George, Ladybird, Lil G and Mol :') <3

All the love :')

Friends, Lovers or Nothing.

Another great day :')

Had decent lessons in the morning, and saw most of my faves at break - Em, Fairy, Pipkin, The Giant One, Mol and Amy. Did lots of work in my free and saw Ladybird and Lion at the end of it :') <3

Lunch was excellent. Saw all the awesome people, and then went to a talk by a graduate English student and he was brilliant! Funny, informative, and my perfect stereotype for a University English student. Right down to his stripy shirt and his short but still somehow whimsically windswept hair.

Spent my afternoon frees with Fairy and Smurf :') <3

Went to town with Bunny, Em, Lion and Mol :') <3 Lots of hilarity with Mol's mysterious caller and Lion's legendary utterly unrivalled wit. Pipkin called us when it was just Bunny, Em and I at Morrisons and he came to see us XD <3 After Heather left (*sad face*) Em, Pipkin and I meandered up to Boots so Pipkin could whine about walking and Em could print off photos <3 Went into Waterstones on the way home and found ourselves in the young readers section, all three of us beautifully delighted at the Peter Pan book with sounds, and the collections of Beatrix Potter, and Winnie The Pooh. Never in my tiny lifetime have I felt more love for two people (who were not my mum or brothers), than the moment when Pipkin (who IS MALE) and Em were equally delighted by the Peter Pan book. We all headed back to Em's and it was quite simply perfect. Put Miranda on and settled on the sofa. Me snuggled into Pipkin, Em snuggled into us both. Em fell asleep, Pipkin and I snuggled, and he laughed at all the right moments in the episode. When Pipkin left he gave both Em and I humongous hugs :') He is lovely. Em and Pipkin make my day, everyday. <3

Em and I nommed DELICIOUS eats and continued with Miranda, before moving to Em's ABSOLUTELY GORGEOUS new bedroom!! :') We actually did homework! On her brilliant new desk, no less. We slow danced, tried on clothes, snuggled and generally chatted. I love her. I really do. I've never had better 'sisters' than her and Bunny <3

Brilliant day. As always, thanks to the beautiful people whom, by some miraculous coincidence, I have been allowed to call my closest friends.

Had a great day today :)

I had a lie in this morning which was sooo good! Walked to school from town and met Jono in the library <3 Hung out with the nerds for a bit. Hung out with the gang at lunch - although Gloves, H and Nerd were on a field trip so I missed them a lot. Started to walk to music with lil G and ended up spending the rest of lunch with Pipkin, Em, Gavin and a couple of other people - so funny!!! :') Also saw Ladybird while dropping Em off at her form room, and he was sweet and said he loved me and made a comment about me being skinny which made me feel really damn good about myself. Dropped Em off, saw my lovely God-sister and walked back with her. English was fairly entertaining. Sylvie and Anderson are legends :')

Walked to town with Em and the other year 11s, which was nice. Headed back to school with Em so she could set up for the year 7 open evening. I decided to 'help out'.

This basically involved me chatting to Pipkin, Em (who fed people gummy bears with chilli powder cause she is just that awesome), the music boys (ended up walking round the sixth form centre with Gavin while Ladybird played guitar next to us), and Pipkin again. At one point there were four guys on a piano. It was brilliant XD So wish I had filmed it. Also, why am I always friends with ridiculously talented people? It can't be good for me! Seriously - Pipkin and this other guy James were playing a fantastic piece - WHILST ON THEIR GODDAM PHONES. Pipkin sent me a text half way through and I didn't even notice because the music still sounded so good. It was awesome.

Came home and watched the Great British Bake Off with mum, and may have been far too emotionally involved when I got upset because one of the guys looked like he was going to cry...

Ah well XD I got a message from Kat so all is good because I have been missing her lots lately :)

I love days like these <3

Absolutely Nothing

Once on a yellow piece of paper with green lines

he wrote a poem

And he called it 'Chops'

because that was the name of his dog

And that's what it was all about

And his teacher gave him an A

and a gold star

And his mother hung it on the kitchen door

and read it to his aunts

That was the year Father Tracy

took all the kids to the zoo

And he let them sing on the bus

And his little sister was born

with tiny toenails and no hair

And his mother and father kissed alot

And the girl around the corner sent him a

Valentine signed with a row of X's

and he had to ask his father what the X's meant

And his father always tucked him in bed at night

And was always there to do it.

Once on a piece of white paper with blue lines

he wrote a poem

And he called it 'Autumn'

because that was the name of the season

And that's what it was all about

And his teacher gave him an A

and asked him to write more clearly

And his mother never hung it on the kitchen door

because of its new paint

And the kids told him

that Father Tracy smoked cigars

And left butts on the pews

And sometimes they would burn holes

That was the year his sister got glasses

with thick lenses and black frames

And the girl around the corner laughed

when he asked her to go see Santa Claus

And the kids told him why

his mother and father kissed alot

And his father never tucked him in bed at night

And his father got mad

when he cried for him to do it.

Once on a paper torn from his notebook

he wrote a poem

And he called it 'Innocence: A Question'

because that was the question about his girl

And that's what it was all about

And his professor gave him an A

and a strange steady look

And his mother never hung it on the kitchen door

because he never showed her

That was the year Father Tracy died

And he forgot how the end

of the Apostle's Creed went

And he caught his sister

making out on the back porch

And his mother and father never kissed

or even talked

And the girl around the corner

wore too much makeup

That made him cough when he kissed her

but he kissed her anyway

because that was the thing to do

And at 3am he tucked himself into bed

his father snoring soundly.

That's why on the back of a brown paper bag

he tried another poem

And he called it 'Absolutely Nothing'

Because that's what it was really all about

And he gave himself an A

and a slash on each damned wrist

And he hung it on the bathroom door

because this time he didn't think

he could reach the kitchen. 

Osoanon Nimuss

That poem features in The Perks Of Being A Wallflower, which is a fantastic book. Sadly, the poem does not feature in the film, but it was still gosh-darn brilliant.


Y'all should read Perks.

An excellent weekend :)

So why was my weekend so fabulous?
Well...
Friday-
Friday at school wasn't the best, and I had been panicking about the evening, but it all turned out well in the end. The panic in the evening was because I was due to attend my friend Alice's 18th birthday party. I was worried that it would be more awkward than fun. However, I had an absolutely fantastic time!!! We all had plenty to drink - possibly a bit too much in Hannah's case, but s'all cool because she was missing Josh - and the majority of the Bench Gang's few boundaries started to dissolve as our alcohol intake increased. I participated in drunken games of Never Have I Ever and Truth or Dare - I dare say these have beaten Tipsy Twister :') Also joined the girls upstairs and had a good laugh, as well as having moments with Jenni, when it was nice to get some things out in the open. I also had a pretty major chat with Jordan about everything, which went surprisingly well. I have a feeling things might be easier from now on. Went home and Charlotte stayed over, which was  nice :) That night with the gang was the best in a long time <3

Saturday-
Woke up at 7 with, surprisingly, NO HANGOVER (*dances*) and pointed Charlotte in the direction of the bus stop. Went shopping in Northampton with the lovely mother :') and had a lot of fun <3 Said good-bye to the Ponds as we watched the last episode of this series of Doctor Who :'(
Also got shitloads of school work done XD

Sunday-
Went to church with Emma to see little Benedict and Linus!! It was pretty good, despite Benedict deciding to be a bit of a handful!! Worked for aaaages at home, which made me feel pretty good for some reason :) Met up with Beth at 4.30 and spent ages just chatting about whatever we fancied :') Hilarious 'date' XD Evening church with Will, Beth and Tom was good - both Beth and I gave testimonies about the last night of Soul Survivor B 2012 (which I will tell you about soon, I swear). Came home, watched a movie with mum, then signed into facebook and saw two things that have left me absolutely buzzing!!
1. Lachs came second in the British Blo-Kart championships!!! So proud of my best friend!! :D <3 <3
2. My amazing God-sister got engaged to her long-term girlfriend today! So, so happy for them both :') <3 <3 <3

All in all, a brilliant weekend <3

Results Day

Sorry for neglecting this blog! I've been stupidly busy, so I shall update y'all on everything soon.
In other news, I got my AS results today. Not best pleased to be honest. I got an A in English lit but a C in lang brought the overall grade down to a B. I also got a C in Psychology... Which means unless I ace my resit and A2 exams, I won't be going to UEA. -_-
Also broke my last pair of glasses.
But hey.
Running off to Wales with my best friend for a few days so I get to forget everything :)

Learning to Smile

Officially writing a book (with the above title) about the last year.
Technically I won't know how it ends until the 12th August, but that's cool.
Kind of looking forward to writing this.
Love to your faces.
Hatter xx

Youth - Daughter

Colour my life with the Chaos of trouble.

Feeling content with life, but... bored. I think.
Mum has been telling me more about the very early years of my life, which everyone in my family normally tries hard to keep secret. It seems that I was born into a very chaotic place/time. Or at least I grew up in chaos. So... I guess it makes sense that my life is quite chaotic a lot of the time, and while a break from the chaos brings relief, I am not entirely comfortable in peace.
It's... unhelpful. Because the chaos can be difficult or perfect or painful or fun or just plain... wtf is going on?!!?! But whatever it feels like, even if it is painful, I need it like I need the sun.
It's like I can keep my balance in a boat on a rough sea, or in an underground train jolting to a stop, but I trip over nothing when I stand still in a quiet room.
I don't know what to do about it to be honest.
So I don't know why I'm even bothering to post this.
Just feeling very chaotic.
Urgh.
asdfghjkl;'dtcgk;n.

Proud :')

No one will ever understand how proud and overwhelmed I feel right now. Well, Em might.
Best evening :')


Um. Anyway. I should probably tell y'all about the past few days.
Saturday.
BEARDY WAS HERE. Like, here. It took me several hours to get over that fact. So, um. Met Em in town and bought sweets while we waited for Beardy to arrive. Beardy arrived and I was very  hyper. I blame Em. I also feel sorry for Beardy, because I forgot to pretend to be normal, and he saw exactly how crazy I can be :/ Em left us and we walked to Lark In The Park (more difficult than it sounds given mine and Beardy's map skills...). Lark was fantastic. Introduced Beardy to some people, went crazy with said people. Basically spent the day listening to the music performances, teasing Beardy, cuddling Beardy, dancing madly with the girls, eating bon bons, mocking Beardy for his hot dog eating attempts. Just.... awesome. An excellent day :') <3


Sunday
Did nothing.
Then went to church and had a hilarious time with Ladybird and the lovely Bethany :')
Went to Roots group afterwards because Toby asked me too, and we just watched the football... XD


Monday.
Another chaotic day of nothing.


Tuesday.
Went into school to help with the induction for the new year 12s. Spent aaaaaaaaaaages chatting to m'dear Zilla, which was lovely <3 Also saw Em. Walked to Glebe with Em and Miranda after school, then saw Ladybird and his sister and had a .... delightful... chat with them. Went to see my group's photography exhibition with mum. Didn't go to dance. Arranged to go to the Giant One's on Thursday :)


Wednesday.
Woke up nice and late XD
Walked my dog and ended up having to wash her in the brook because she got something manky all over herself -_-
Met Em and Heather in town, which was very  entertaining :') Bought Despicable Me so that I can force Em and Beardy to watch it. Nommed chips in Morrisons, came home and did chores then Em and I went to Northamptonshire Music and Performing Arts Trust: Summer Festival of Music: Here Comes The Sun. Got a tad overwhelmed, as I was only expecting to see Heather and Ladybird, and there were about 10 other people I know/adore there! Also, Heather was absolutely phenomenal, and I could not be more proud of my 'little sister'. I actually almost cried. Just... so proud of all of them, especially Heather, Will and Bethany.


It was an absolutely fantastic evening, and I am still feeling a bit overwhelmed several hours later...
<3

The world was on fire

Go listen to the song in the last post.
It's awesome.


So... my life. 


Quite a lot has happened.
But I can't be bothered to mention any of it.
Other than to say I spent most of the week either - weighed down with uni shiz, chatting to awesome people at the bench, or having a good time and relaxing in music with t'boys.

Beardy is here tomorrow :3
Quite excited :D
Like... WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH kind of excited.
Should be fun XD


On Thursday I saw the cinema showing of the recent Frankenstein play starring Benedict Cumberbatch as Frankenstein and Johnny Lee Miller as the Creature. It was almost flawless.


The set was just… beautifully created and structured.
The script was incredibly well written.
The entire thing was perfectly directed by Danny Boyle.
And the cast were simply captivating.
Literally could not tear my eyes away from it all.
So bluddy fantastic.
I just-
>.< I love theatre far too much.
I need to go to the theatre more.

The play also reminded me why I love English lit so much. And theatre. And that as soon as I am earning enough for it to be affordable, I am going to go to the theatre at least once a month.Note - Kat is awesome. And I miss her. And she should get her sexy butt over here sometime. And then we shall see Frankenstein together <3


Spent today at Birmingham University Open Day. Which was... interesting. Went to an English with Creative Writing talk, which was fantastic. The teacher was ridiculously fun and had a very similar sense of humour to me. And his voice is basically the same as my Michael Mcintyre impression. Swear I am destined for the course as well. Tis awesome. Only issue - I'm planning to take Psychology at Uni... :/ 
Psychology talk was good too, that lecturer also shared my sense of humour. Why do I like people with quick, dry humour so much???? Ah well. Course looks interesting too.
English on it's own was the most boring talk EVER. Woman could not hold my interest -_- Definitely not going to Birmingham for English.
Library is MASSIVE though... :3
Overall a pretty cool day and university :)


Managed to miss Harry's gig tonight, cause I'm an idiot -_-
It was his new band as well :/
Now I'm sad :(


Anywho... STUFF.


Pretty content with life right now. Good days make up for the bad and the sun keeps pushing through the clouds :)


Thank y'all for the page views :')


Go listen to some happy songs :)

James Vincent McMorrow - Wicked Game

Mixed messages.

Fuck off.
Tired of trying and getting nowhere.
I give up.


What is it with people and honesty?


Just tell the damn truth and move on with your life!!!


You angry at someone?
Tell them.
Makes things a lot easier.
You happy about something someone's doing?
Tell them
Also makes things easier.


On a happier note:
BEN IS VISITING NEXT SATURDAY.
*EXCITEMENT*.

Generosity

My 'Auntie S' (as I shall call her on here) is a truly astonishing woman.
I love her completely.
And she loves me completely, despite having no real obligation to me whatsoever. She isn't my real aunt. She is the sister of my half-brothers' dad. But still. She is Auntie S.
She is a Christian with seemingly unwavering faith.
She has an unbelievable sense of compassion and humanity.
She is a faithful wife, and a fantastic mother to two brilliant individuals.
She is kind.
She is caring.
She is honest.
She is ridiculously enthusiastic about everything.
She is incredibly fond of everyone.
She has an uncanny ability to make anyone smile.
And to make anyone feel loved, and blessed, and treasured by all.
She is incredibly selfless.
She is so sweet.
She is loyal.
I have never encountered a single one of her flaws, if she even has one. Possibly it would be that she might get herself hurt by caring too much.
She is so small and yet so unbelievably strong.
She astonishes me.
Every time I see her.


She went well out of her way to drive mum to hospital and back recently, as well as coming with me to visit and being a tower of strength and a great source of cuddles when either of us needed comfort.
We were visiting my mum in hospital, and while I had alone time with mum Auntie S was off befriending and bringing smiles to the rest of the ward.
She will always believe the best of everyone, and try her best to bring a smile to everyone.


She is always giving.
Always.


If you asked her for the world, she'd find some way to give it to you. 


And when you ask for nothing, she gives you more.


Tiny example of her ridiculous generosity:
I came home today to find an early birthday from her. A cheque for £150.
To some people, that's nothing. But to my family, and to Auntie S, that's ...well, a rather significant amount.
It's not even a mile stone birthday.
£50 would be incredibly generous
£100 would be astonishing and extravagant
£150 is so... Auntie S. But I can't accept it. She'll bless my heart and try to get me to keep it but I can't. She is so generous and so strong and the greatest gift she can give me is the chance to one day become like both her and my mother. The money is an astonishing gift, but I can't accept it. I know she'll want me to keep some, and I will so she doesn't fuss, but I certainly can't accept £150. Not from her. She's too... good. I'll ask her to buy herself a present with the rest, or send it to a charity. That is the right kind of place for money given with that much love and good-will.


I love Auntie S.
I always will.
She could give you everything you could ask for and more, and she would still want to give you more.
She is the most purely good and true person I know.
Standing between her and mum, I know I have a lot to live up to.
End of 'rant'.

I miss you.

A lot.
But it's not hard to tell that you don't miss me.

Another thing what I wrote.

“So I’ll spend my nights with a glass of Pimms
Waiting for rain to close summer in
For until the birds cease to sing
I see no hope that we may begin”

Wrote this yesterday.

No idea what it's about, or why I wrote it.

Derp.

I don't even know.

Anything at the moment actually.
Just... No idea.
Anywho.
My life over the past few days:


Monday 4th June:
Village Jubilee celebration! So damn patriotic :') Em came over, which was lovely <3 She ended up staying overnight too XD Lots of fun <3


Tuesday 5th:
Met up with Ladybird, Bethany, Matt, Young Harry and a couple of guitars <3 Spent the whole day jamming at Wicksteed, which was pretty cool. Got to admit I felt a bit out of place, but it wasn't too bad. Got a lift home with Ladybird and his Dad - scary shit! But it was nice really <3 Walked my doggy...


Wednesday 6th: 
Was meant to meet up with Gloves but she couldn't make it :/ Ended up applying for some jobs, tidying, and dying part of my hair blue. Pretty cool XD
Walked my dog for aaaaages. Danced up a hill to Pencil Full Of Lead by Paolo Nutini, but got caught in a thunderstorm 1 and a half miles from home! Ah well. It was still pretty fun. Also met a pretty dog, called Shea. She looked like this, just damper: 

Beaut :') <3


Thursday 7th: 
Day with the Fairy!!!!
M'lovely bezzie came over for the day.
We jammed on guitars for a couple of hours. Then took the dog out and DIDN'T get caught in a thunderstorm XD Got the bus into town IN THE RAIN DAMMIT. Chatted for ages in Costa :') About everything and nothing, because we can. Went to music shops and all sorts. Mum picked us up and we spent more time guitaring. We cooked dinner together, which was pretty funny XD I made him wear an apron :') Dinner was delicious, as was pudding, and we all curled up on the sofa at the end of the evening to watch Sherlock <3 Unfortunately Fairy left before the end D: But ah well, we still had a great day :')
Spent the rest of the evening watching a thing about Prince William and trying to organise a gathering with Rorillie.


Friday 8th:
Unfortunately, neither Lion or Unicorn could make it, so it was just going to be New Guy (who actually isn't very new any more, but hey), Ladybird and I. New Guy was dropped off at mine, and we arrived at Wicksteed at the same time as Ladybird :') Muchos jamming and hugging and setting fire to matches before we decided to walk to town because New Guy was hungry. Um. Y'know what? I 'tumbled' about Friday earlier, and I can't remember any more than I could then, so I shall copy and past what I put on the tumblr post here...

• COLDNESS. New Guy setting fire to random shit XD
• Iris <3
• Meandering round town.
• Getting food and hiding. Creepy mods.
• Loitering. Searching for the car park entrance.
• HMV. Chatting to Ladybird while waiting for New Guy.
• Getting intimidated by them standing over me.
• The never ending stairs.
• Car park roof XD Walking down to the third level past the no pedestrian sign.
• Singing Iris with Ladybird (and his cheeky grin on the awesome bit) <3
• Ladybird breaking a string.
• Meandering back to the Newlands centre while playing guitar.
• Waiting outside KFC for New Guy. Strange children making faces at us - “They are probably jealous because they think I am going out with Jenny. I mean, who wouldn't be.”
• Intersales music was pretty cool, as usual.
• Sitting and singing Iris outside the little white church. That look :’) 
• THE SHOP. Sweeties :’) The boys being cute.

Me: Ladybird! What colour bon-bon would you like?
Ladybird: *Pause* Blue, to match your eyes.

• Walking back to Wicksteed in the rain :’) CUTE BANTER. Love my boys. Even though one of them is a stalker. Still. They are lovely :’) “I DON’T WANT TO ‘TEST MY SKILLS’ WITH YOU LADYBIRD.”
• Feeding people bon-bons
• Randomly texting Emma and dragging her bootiful face out with us.
• Cute-ness.
• Crazy laughter :’)
• Cookies and bon-bons.
• Singing loudly and ridiculously with the three of them down London Road <3
• Em’s sister (who believes we are together) driving past at the exact moment when the boys ran off and it looked like we were on our own together…
• Watching the boys fail at hiding from us. They dragged a guitar case up one of the Wicksteed play area things. Seriously. So Em and I just messed around on the tyre swing BECAUSE WE DON’T NEED MEN ;)
• Zip wire :’) Em being terrified. Me being terrified. Me being more terrified when Ladybird jumped on me so that we zip-wired together :’) More zip wire antics. Panties. Spanking. Being picked up -_-
• That… thing. Which Em took ages to figure out. And Ladybird did… acrobatics through.
• PUDDLES.
• Swings. 
• HELICOPTER. 
• See-saw antics. Ladybird carrying my bag like a girl :’)
• ‘Rape’.
• Craziness.
• Ladybird and I falling off the swing because we are crazy fools. Twice.
• Em and I being DARNED AWESOME. Like, all the time XD
• Em and I on the swings doing adrenaline XD
• MO-FO :’) “Tuck your tail in little duck” :’)
• Mucking about like twits. 
• Chasing each other. More ‘spanking’.
• CUTE SHIZ.
• Talk with Em <3
• Ladybird saving me the last cookie :’)
• More talking with my Em <3
• Falling off the swing with Ladybird. Again.
• ‘Penetration’.
• Straddling.
• Em ‘having sky sex’.
• The boys making Misfits jokes.
• Back to the tyre XD Boys carrying all the shiz XD
• General awesomeness.
• Ladybird singing Iris to Em and I <3 Em paying him 3 pence :’) <3
• Checking on Ladybird and New Guy.
• Windswept photo with Em.
• Prancing about like fools again.
• “Me: Are you ever alright? Ladybird: No” :’( At least he promised he’ll talk to me.
• “Ladybird: Em, would you join Lion and I visiting Jenny at uni in Cornwall? Em: I would walk to Cornwall for Jen.” I love them :’)
• EVERYONE LEAVING AT ONCE D:
• “Two can play at that game”
• Talking to New Guy for aaaaaages.
• The cute small child.
• More talking to New Guy. 
• Random truck hauling three tanks casually rolling into Wicksteed… O.o
• Home!
• Walking B with my beautiful mama.
• Watching Down With Love and then Men In Black with mum :’) <3 <3

So yeah. T'was one of those perfect days, despite the rain :')

Saturday:

Woke up and couldn't be bothered to move so sat doing photography work in bed. Prepared for Em's arrival. Em arrived, we chatted like crazy fools and listened to/watched random shiz. We took the dog on the three mile walk and encountered some strange new friends, which included a herd of sheep. Came back and continued to listen to/watch stuff, including some AVPM, and some Misfits. DURDURDURDURDUR. WHAT THE DEVIL IS GOING ON HERE? I AM WOMAN, HEAR ME STOMP. That is all I have to say. Em left, and I haven't really done... anything productive since. Watched a movie with mama. Started to watch one of my favourite rom coms - The Holiday - when I got a message from Em, a message from Miranda, and a phone call from Beardy. *All falls to shit*

So Em, my gorgeous 'little sister' may be moving to Canada before September, so I'll have to say goodbye a year earlier D: Just... No. I really don't want her to go. I don't know how I'll survive without her.

Message from Miranda was about Unicorn, and just made me sad.

Phone call from Beardy... what can I say. Heart breaking? Maybe? Certainly difficult. But I think we have kind of figured something out, and I think all is good in the end.

Sat crying and talking to mum for an hour.

Came downstairs, had the final call with Beardy, and came here to blog. Now listening to this guy: http://www.seantaylorsongs.com/music.php and about to get ready for bed.

So now you know about the last week.

Hope you've had a good one.

Much love.

Goodnight.

Hatter.

xxx

Changing Times

So much has changed in these last few days, I don't really know where to start.
I've lost things, regained things, found new things. Mum went into hospital for an operation and it was like I was 8 all again. I managed to get stressed so much I was too exhausted to move. I saw part of my childhood come to life when I visited HP Studios. I fought with Ladybird and thought I had lost him. And now he's apologising to me. I made a decision, which I will probably soon regret. I have watched Notting Hill for the first time. It was cute :')
I don't know.
So many experiences. So much has changed. And some of that has reversed again. But some has stayed changed. I'm not sure if it's in a good way. 


Songs:
Ghosts that we knew - Mumford and Sons
Wherever you will go - The Calling
Liar - Mumford and Sons
Small Bump - Ed Sheeran
Strong - Robbie Williams
Everybody's changing - Keane
Mr Bright Eyes - Rebecca Ferguson
Mr Blue Sky - ELO
Charlie Brown - Coldplay
Pencil full of lead - Paolo Nutini

When the radio makes it all okay :')

Lazing on a Sunny Afternoon

~ Sunny afternoon, The Kinks.

Definitely the song of the day.
Psychology exam was fine, a really nice paper.
Spent the next 2 hours lazing around in the Sun and eating sweets with H, Fairy, Nerd and t'tothers.
Went to music at lunch and the boys were jamming (awesome to behold), so that was great fun. Also didn't get kicked out and ended up having a laugh with the teacher for a change. So yeah. That was pretty nice.
Helped out in Year 10 English which wasn't too bad, and then helped Em revise.
Went home, talked to a friend from primary school and then went out for a walk in the sun with Gloves :')
T'was rather entertaining :D
Nommed food, watched MiB, and am now watching War Horse and trying not to cry.


Hope you've had a lovely day, perhaps accompanied by similarly lovely weather


xx

Sunny days...

Well, *day.
It's sunny today!
So I have done 3 photo-shoots for Friday and not enough revision for my Psychology exam tomorrow.
*Facepalm*
Darned sun.

Sizzle sizzle sizzle...

Thanks to a week of Kat's cooking, I can now cook a couple of meals and so today, I cooked quorn fillet wraps with tomato, etc and am proud to say I made quorn taste better than chicken! XD
*Proud of self moment*
Now to watch Misfits in my revision breaks...


Yom nom nom.

Ignoring you.

I'm not, I promise.
It's just that what with exams and all, I'm actually only talking to people I come across each day.
Chatted to people at school because they were there for exams like me. Haven't spoken to them since. Not because I'm ignoring them, but because we are all busy and need to avoid distraction.
Spoke to Ladybird because we went to a gig together. Not spoken since. Avoiding distraction.
Haven't texted Om back because I have low credit and will see him soon.
Haven't spoken to Suffolk people for a while, despite missing them a lot, simply because if I start talking to them I won't want to stop, and I'll never get anything done.
I've officially realised how important these exams are, and so am not going out of my way to talk to anyone in case I get distracted. Also only using the internet during revision breaks or to listen to music.
So I'm really sorry if anyone feels like I am ignoring them, and is feeling hurt or annoyed. It'll be over after Friday, and then I can talk to people again.
I'm not ignoring you.
I just can't afford to talk right now.
Sorry.
See you on the other side.

4 out of 6.

Done 4 of my 6 exams!!! Yay!!! :D
So painful though D:
Although, Section A of my ELLA2 paper contained an extract of an interview with Raymond Blanc, who my brother knows well and has worked for XD So that provided slight entertainment today.


I also hung out with weirdos a lot.
My day:
Arrived and chatted to people, walked Em to her form room and ended up staying for aaaaages. Got a hug from Ladybird and Ladybird's friend, and helped mop up spilled coffee. 
Spent 1st in the library with a variety of people including my son JT :D
Chatted to people at break.
Spent 2 hours working in the study room and swapping distraction notes with Gloves via paper aeroplane. Got quite a bit of work done too :D
Spent lunch panicking about my exam, and ended up walking round the whole school. Went to the field with Darts and my notes and ended up chatting to Ladybird, Lion, Em, Big Dave and Darts. It was muchos fun <3 Ladybird and Lion were sizing each other in a manly fashion, and then Ladybird gave Lion a rather comical shove, which seemed straight out of a cartoon :D I also tackled Ladybird at some point. And got freaked out by Lion's duck noises.
Jah. Anywho. Muchos fun.
Returned to the bench. Kinda pined for Om. Panicked about the exam.
Did the stupid thing and am just so damn glad it's over!!!!
Attached myself to Om for the rest of the afternoon.
Chatted to people, came home and watched even more Friends XD
Had some really good chats with people, especially mum today :D <3


Excited about the gig tomorrow!!! Ahhhh The Incidents could win the final!! I will let you know how it goes.


Night! xx

Bwahaaa.

Gloves does make me laugh :')

Comfy shoulders.

Wicked was amazing!!!!
So much love.


Went to church on Sunday and saw some lovely people. Also spoke to Ladybird's dad, which made me ridiculously nervous. Seriously. Scary dude. He has bush-baby eyes like Ladybird, but they seem bigger and whatnot because he has shorter hair. Anyway. Yeah. Church was fun. Organised Ladybird's life/Saturday evening for him. Went home, revised, slept.


Monday.
Spent most of the day watching Friends Series One instead of revising. Then revised a bit in the evening.


Tuesday.
Revised a little in the morning, went to school with Ninja and chatted to people/got rained on with people instead of working. Revised more in the afternoon. Came home and revised with mum until about 1am. Slept.


Wednesday 16th.
Woke up and panicked. 4 and a half hours of exams about 3 hours away. Was I ready? No. Arrived at school ridiculously early and just sat with Lachs until exam time. Aced the philosophy paper, failed the ethics paper. 3 hours of exams done. 2 out 6 exams done. Lunch time. Om is back from doing archery for Team GB in Croatia!!!!!! Love for t'other bezzie. <3 Chatted to people, hung with my gang. Sat on Om's lap for aaaaaages. He's warm. And his heart was like... ba-boom ba-boom ba-boom ba-boom ba-boom ba-boom. (That was a heart beating quickly, just so you know). 
ENGLISH EXAM TIME. That was.... okay. I think. Argh. I don't know! It was alright. Returned to Om's comfy shoulder at the end of the day. Went to remind Ladybird of something, forgot what it was and ended up just chatting and hugging him. Waited with Lion till 4ish, which was funny, saw my 'son' and 'grandson' (I should probably tell Om that 'we have a grandson'... :/), got picked up by mum and went home. Have done nothing productive since except listen to Placebo.
I forgot to pick up the ballet CD from my dance teacher -.-


In case I forget to blog again, enjoy my week plan:
Full day of revision tomorrow! Yay! >.<
Then ELLA2 exam on Friday.
Then Incidents gig with the usuals, Ladybird, Mum and possibly Peter Pan XD on Saturday.
Church on sunday?
Monday: revision!
Tuesday: Tresham! Photoshoot! Revision!
Wednesday: Psychology exam!
Thursday: HARRY POTTER STUDIO TOUR.
Friday: Photography exam!
Saturday: Cambridge or Northampton and hair cut.
Sunday: Cambridge if I didn't go on Saturday. I really need to speak to Beardy about this actually.
Monday/Tuesday: Modelling for the Lion's sister.
Wednesday: Go into school for year 10 RE lesson, because I love them and I seriously missed them today!!! <3
And that's as far as my plans for life go....


Byeeee!
Hatter <3


P.s. Mum, Fairy and Om have the comfiest shoulders I know. Physically and metaphorically. I know I can trust them with anything, and always lean on them for support if I have to. Plus they have physically comfy shoulders. I could sleep on them. Literally. Anywho. Enough shoulder-love.

*Sigh*.

Not sure how I feel today.
Stressed, mostly.
But Beardy texted me through the day, so it was better than it might have been.
Tresham wasn't too bad, although I think I've been pretty melancholy since I woke up :/ Emma gave me a lift back to Bishop, so that saved my legs :) 
Went to music, which was... okay. Good bits and bad bits. My lovely Lion gave me a card because I'm on study leave from now on, so they won't get to see me for a month! D: The card was so sweet <3
Didn't see Fairy at the end of lunch, and Om is away doing archery in Croatia with Team GB, so I felt completely lost without my two best friends. Completely. It doesn't make sense without them.
For some reason my afternoon lessons felt really crappy. Texted Beardy and mum, and they made me smile.
Said 'goodbye for a month' to everyone I wouldn't see, which made me a little sad. Especially having to say it to Lion and my 'little sister' Heather </3 Completely adore those two. I actually think of them like younger (yet taller) siblings. Promised everyone I'd visit between/after exams, but don't know if I'll actually be able to stick to that :/
Went to town with Em, which was hilarious. We have such a laugh together :D Shame I won't be there for her birthday on Monday :(


SO MUCH TO LOOK FORWARD TO SOON.


Tomorrow I'm going to see Wicked with m'lovely Darts :D <3 Next Friday is the Incidents gig at the OBS Final, and I should be taking Ladybird (news about him actually...), so that should be epic :D <3 Then Darts is taking me to the Harry Potter Studio Tour!!!!!!!!!! on the 24th ish, so that should be AMAZING. Seeeeriously can't wait XD After all my exams Beardy and I are meeting in Cambridge, which should be rather awesome XD Half term after that, and hopefully will have a sleepover with Heather, Unicorn and Em :D and might be meeting up with other people too. *EXCITEMENT*!!!!!!!


So...Ladybird news...
The Unicorn likes Ladybird. And he knew a while ago, but now he is responding to it and appears to like her back. I desperately want to be completely happy for them, and I kind of am. But there's a little part of me that burns whenever I see/hear about them being cute together. I don't like Ladybird like that, so it's not that kind of jealousy. It's more... ugh. I don't know how to explain it. He means too much to me, but in a close-friend-sense. I need him to be the same as he normally is with me. I need his warmth, and his hugs, and his stupid jokes. So no matter how much I desperately want to be happy for them, that part of me is terrified, because I know that the closer they get, the more he will drift away from me and change how he acts around me. I just don't know that I can take it right now. I want that part of me to go away, so I don't rely on him any more and I can be completely happy for them. To be fair, I don't need him as much lately, but there is still that tiny part. I hate it. But that's how it is. And I don't know how to change it.

Double chin.

I have officially discovered why my chin looks double really fucking quickly. Instead of creasing as it naturally would, the skin under my chin (haha that rhymes! XD) creases at the scar I've had there since the beginning of primary school. So when I technically don't have a double chin, it still looks like I do because of my stupid scar.
YAY. -.-


Chin rant over.


I think the double chin issue may be half the reason I want to go on a diet. But most of it is the FLABBY BELLY that has slowly developed since my 'stick days' ended after prom.


Fat rant over.


SO. TODAY AND SHIT.


School was... mundane. 
Went to Tresham. Worked constantly and was really bored.
Hung around with the smokers outside at break.
Walked to Bishop on my own.
Spent my free attempting to revise and talking to Sophie. Apparently, she, Cheryl and I are all considering Leicester Uni, so we should totally live together and shiz ;)
Spent lunch chatting to gingers. Literally. Chatted to Eliza, then went for several walk and talks with my bezzie the Fairy. SO MUCH GINGER. <3 <3 Em was upset though, so I ended up talking to her and walking her to her form room. Then saw Ladybird and was just like... "Eh. Pain." But I still hugged him.
Double English wasn't too bad :)
Manic end of school... Saw the Lion, Jenny E and Heather in ridiculously quick succession. Saw Ladybird and got a hug, then let his friends finish off my sweets. Ladybird ate his with the wrapper on. Seriously. He's a freak. 
Forgot to ask him if he needs a lift to the gig or not -.-
Went to the Bench and had muchos fun with Zilla and Gloves XD Zilla was stalking Beardy via my phone and managed to ring him and freak out. So I then rang him to tell him I wasn't actually ringing him. O.o
Got a lift home with the Hogg brothers :)
Pinned up Emma's excellent revision poster and attempted to work.
Went to ballet and got fed up because we've been moved to an irrelevant class. Seriously, Gloves and I are doing Grade 4, and the class is doing Grade 3 work for some medal thing. I dunnae care about the medal, I'm not doing that exam. I just want to practise Grade 4!!! ¬¬
Came home, ate food, worked since.
My exams are in just over 7 days and I am so not ready.


Yay!!


I know it doesn't sound like it, but other than exam stress I am really happy and had a pretty good day :)


Love your faces.
xx

Mine and Emma's diet :D

Surprisingly excited :D

Rules:
1. NO calorie counting.
2. NO making ourselves sick.
3. NO punishing oursleves when we think we’ve done badly.
4. Rewards when we’ve done well
5. Stick to 3 healthy sized meals a day.
6. If we do badly- its fine. We’ll just try again.

Emma: 'Hopefully this will stop silly and drastic ‘Weightloss’ phases from Emma that make Jen cringe.'

‘Together?’
‘Yeah- together :)’

<3

Hey there Delilah

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h_m-BjrxmgI&ob=av2e

1000 miles seems pretty far 
but they've got planes and trains and cars
I'd walk to you if I had no other way....

Placebo - Running Up That Hill

Dive for Dreams: E.E. Cummings

Dive for dreams
or a slogan may topple you
(trees are their roots
and wind is wind)
Trust your heart
if the seas catch fire
(and live by love
though the stars walk backward)
Honour the past
but welcome the future
(and dance your death away
at the wedding)
Never mind a world
with its villains or heroes
(for good likes girls
and tomorrow and the earth)
In spite of everything
which breathes and moves since
Doom
(with white longest hands
nesting each crease)
Will smooth entirely our minds
- before tearing my room I turn, and
(stooping through the morning)
kiss this pillow dear, where our heads
lived and were.

(Stolen from Zilla's blog because she has an epic taste in poetry)

I can't revise.

Seriously.
How does one go about revising a play/novel?
I've read it again, and am now trying to make key notes.
Except I have no idea how, or what to make said notes on.
Thus far I have a half-finished plot summary, character profiles, unfinished key themes and relationships, key facts courtesy of Sparknotes, and 'Historical context' (literally. Just those words and a wibbly line beneath).


I can't seem to finish the unfinished parts or figure out what I really need to take notes on.
After today I'm mostly just going to do past papers.


I'll try another 45 minutes of this, then I'm doing more Ethics revision. That's a lot easier.


Sorry.
Just thought I'd fill you in about my revision failures.


Have a good day peeps!


Hope any revision you might be doing is going really well!


If it's not, stop reading this and go revise.


Seriously.


Go!

I'll be back when the colour fades...

The long awaited catch up post from my delightful trip to Suffolk is finally complete! Hurrah!!


So I'm officially home from one of the craziest, happiest week of my life. Details below.  


Monday 2nd April
It is a very odd feeling to spend two hours in a car with people you have never met before in your entire life; nevertheless, this is how I spent my time from 9am until 11am on Monday the 2nd of April 2012. The destination of this rather unusual journey was, of course, Suffolk. Have some Suffolk facts:
1. The county seat is Ipswich. 

2. The terrain is low and undulating, and the region, mainly agricultural, is one of the chief producers of grain, sugar beets, and vegetables in England.

3. Suffolk and Norfolk formed the Kingdom of the Iceni, whose Queen Boadicea led a revolt ( 60) against the Romans. 

4. In Anglo-Saxon times Suffolk was part of the kingdom of East Anglia, inhabited by the "south folk" of that kingdom, from which its name comes. 

5. In the Middle Ages, Suffolk was the center of a large wool industry. The importance of Ipswich as a port increased when Great Britain joined the European Community (now the European Union). 

6. In 1974, East Suffolk and West Suffolk were combined to form the nonmetropolitan county of Suffolk.

7. My first friend in Broughton, Kat, has lived there for the last 3 years, and, for the first time since she moved, I was visiting her. For 3 nights. Except those three nights were to turn into five, and one of the best almost-weeks of my life.

So after a two hour journey with complete strangers, I arrived in the fairly sunny Debenham, and sat next to a red telephone box outside a post office as I awaited Mr Brilliant. When he arrived I broke my face on his shoulder, petted some greyhounds and chatted with his mother on the way to his house. We spent our afternoon chatting, guitaring, spooning while I read, and - on my part - falling asleep. We also took a trip around Otley and Brilliant and I 'shared' a tub of mint chocolate chip ice cream.

M'darling Kat arrived to steal us away to her home for the next few nights. T'was so fantastical to see her again! I had missed her so damn much! Her house is also rather epic - they are well suited - I can't believe I haven't visited sooner!

I had a really splendid evening nomming food, guitaring, chatting and laughing with these two truly wonderful people. Evenings like that are almost magical, and it's so hard to believe they weren't brilliant dreams from which I must one day wake up.

Tuesday: "Did the cat eat the pasta shell?" "No... The pasta shell ate the cat"

I woke up quite early, and after being momentarily disorientated, I happily discovered that Monday had not been a dream and I was definitely in the home of my wonderful Kat, accompanied by Mr Brilliant. Took a shower! (An excellent change for someone who can only have baths because the shower is broken). And plodded down to breakfast with wet hair. Mini chocolate weetabix were surprisingly nice. We resorted to watching two depressing episodes of Scrubs and some strangely entertaining Jeremy Kyle. Began to watch Whose Line Is It Anyway, and ended up on YouTube watching clips from Fast And Loose. I believe it was around now that the first new person arrived. I have to say I was terribly nervous about meeting Kat's 'gang'. Seriously. But I think I needn't have been. They are an astonishing group of people, and I can not get over the way they just welcomed me as one of their own. Anyway. Tuesday.

So BeardyBen (I'll explain later) arrived (in Lycra I may add. Very peculiar way to meet someone to be honest) and he went upstairs to get changed into proper attire while Kat put some pizzas in the oven. CuriousGeorge arrived just in time for food, and we all squashed onto the sofa to eat while we watched some hilarious youtube clips, including some old Eddie Izzard - "Covered in bees" and "cake or death" being some of our collective favourites.

Muchos banter ensued, though we ended up calling Rory and whining down the phone at him because he wasn't there yet. I couldn't stop playing with BeardyBen's hair. He had a ringlet right at the front, and it was so cute! So by the time GeniusRory (semi-adopted nickname from Brilliant) arrived, I was cuddled into the sofa by Kat, BeardyBen and CuriousGeorge, happily playing with BeardyBen's hair. GeniusRory was one of the people I was most nervous about meeting, but I found him to be very welcoming, and a really lovely and intelligent person. I'll write more about individuals later. We all settled in to excellent banter and moments full of joy and laughter.

After the Lycra incident, mine and BeardyBen's friendship continued to be well... odd. Beardy was lying down quite sweetly on the sofa, with CuriousGeorge settled by his feet at the end. I returned to the room having collected my camera and sat myself in the curve of Beardy's body at his hips, leaning back into the arms of CuriousGeorge. Beardy's beard had been intriguing me for a while now, so I moved my fingertips from his awesome crazy hair to his stubbly-beard-ness. Finding the rhythmic stroking quite relaxing, I was fairly surprised to see Beardy's face change the way it did. SO CUTE. And slightly odd. But hey, life is life, and mine a peculiar one, so it seems only natural that I had accidentally stumbled upon someone's minor hot spot within an hour or two of meeting them. My duty for the day quickly became the stroking of BeardyBen's beard, which I really didn't mind as I found it rather therapeutic. So it came to be that when TheMiriam (I simply cannot find a word that fits her better than something that makes her as unique, and the one and only) arrived at around 4pm, I was nestled on the sofa as before, stroking BeardyBen's face and occasionally chuckling at his expression. TheMiriam is beautiful, intriguing, and has stunning green-blue hair! She is the other new person I was most nervous about meeting. But again, I was really touched by the way she, along with the others, welcomed me into the fold.

We all spent happy hours chatting, and at one point I believe Mr Brilliant broke out the guitars. The room was full of jamming and snuggling as we established new friendships and reinforced old ones. At one point BeardyBen and I had been jamming quietly (he is a fantastic guitarist - although perhaps as intimidated by Brilliant's skills as the rest of us - and I love his voice. It may not be technically whatnot, but something about it catches me, and makes me smile.) when the majority of the group left the room for reasons then unknown to us, and left Beardy and I guitaring alone together. We continued, and entered into a sort of 'song exchange' which I really enjoyed. Kat and Beardy are officially my favourite people to jam with, as it truly becomes an exchange. Whilst one plays, the other really listens, and vice versa, to the point where it becomes an unusual kind of conversation. It is a fantastic experience. So much more enjoyable than being barely listened to and played over. I was so happy to sit and listen to Beardy and then play a song for him in return. Suffolk people are some of the rare type that I am not afraid to sing in front of. They made me feel so comfortable being myself around them that I never once felt the need to change to fit in or impress, and for that I am eternally grateful, as people who give that effect are damn rare finds. I even played Beardy the song that I wrote last week, which he said he liked. (So nice to hear :D) And he also said that he was impressed with my guitar skills when I told him how long I had been learning. That was lovely :)

CuriousGeorge had re-entered the room and was curious about the disappearance of everyone else, so we followed our noses to the kitchen, where the others were making spaghetti bolognese with quorn. The three of us were soon kicked out of the kitchen and ended up discussing faith and politics for a while, which was rather interesting.

Dinner was served, and my compliments to the chefs! A really delicious meal :) We attempted to give Bingo (Kat's cat) a piece of pasta by putting it on the windowsill next to him, but when we next looked over, only the pasta remained; hence: "The pasta shell ate the cat!". Bakewell tarts for pudding :D <3

We returned to the lounge and continued chatting and jamming. I heard TheMiriam sing - she has a beautiful, soulful voice which, from what I've seen, reflects her personality. I ended up listening to her and stroking BeardyBen's beard as his head was in my lap. Mr Brilliant was bored, so came and sat with us, but then attempted to physically drag me from the room so we'd all go to the park. I did not like that at all. It hurt, and kind of pissed me off. I don't like being treated like people's property. Nor do I like feeling caged. Beardy fought for me though, and I exchanged a look with Kat as I took sanctuary in CuriousGeorge's lovely warm arms again.

Eventually we did all head over to the park opposite Kat's, and had a lovely time frolicking and taking pictures. I fell down a slide. It was hilarious. The boys were laughing while they attempted to rescue me. It's okay. I gave them permission before I attempted the slide mission. We did some group photos, and then headed inside to the spare room because TheMiriam's bare feet were getting cold. We all listened and raved to some good music for a while. I was happy to have found a fellow Coldplay fan in the form of Beardy. We put on some U2 and even got GeniusRory to sing along before he had to leave. I have no idea how or why, but while Kat saw GeniusRory off, TheMiriam and I managed to get Beardy and CuriousGeorge shirtless. I have no idea how it happened, but it was rather entertaining. Mr Brilliant also played nervous with Beardy, which was ... odd... to say the least. He got very far. TheMiriam and I weren't really sure what to think or do. More chatting and whatnot when Kat returned, until Beardy and CuriousGeorge left in quick succession, and TheMiriam and Kat agreed now was the time for booze. So Brilliant, TheMiriam, Kat and I played the 'Roxanne' drinking game, chatted and just got to know each other a bit more. Mr Brilliant got very drunk very quickly, despite denying the fact that he was an alkie.  I did not. Well. I had to crawl to the bathroom at one point because my legs weren't entirely stable, but I had a clear head. TheMiriam and Kat went off to her room, so Brilliant and I chatted until we decided to sleep. Apparently they came back at about 2am.

All in all, a fantastic day full of new (and old) astounding people.


Wednesday:
STUFF.
We all woke up fairly groggy and hungover, and so us girls forced Brilliant to make us fried eggs for breakfast. We nommed our fried eggs, bagels and cereal very happily.
Watched Zoolander, which was a WEIRD film. Seriously. That is one peculiar movie.
So yeah, we watched that, then decided it was time for luncheon. Fortunately (as I can't cook to save my life), I didn't do much to help with the cooking as mother dear called. We had a general chat, and then we discussed travel arrangements. I could either get the train home on Thursday OR I could stay until Saturday. Decided to talk to Kat about it after the delicious food. T'was so nice! TheMiriam, Kat and Brilliant are excellent cooks XD I think it was then that we had pudding, which consisted of ice cream (a large hunk of which fell on the floor and melted pitifully), banana, marshmallows, digestive biscuits, and swirly chocolate spread. Yom nom nom.
We went for a ramble in the woods, which had rather entertaining results. Came back and TheMiriam left soon after. I was sad to say goodbye. She's awesome. And she makes Kat really damn happy. So that makes her 10 times more awesome than normally possible. I completely approve.
Went for a waddle in the foresty-thing near Kat's which was entertaining. We conquered a mound with the cunning use of twigs.
More exceptionally nice food for dinnerrrr. 
We then decided to dye part of my hair purple. Yeah. Seriously. I don't know if it was before or after that we watched the Rocky Horror Picture Show and got very freaked out when we realised Frank n Furter looks a lot like Beardy... O.o
Decided not to look at my hair until the morning so went to bed very nervous!!!


Thursday
My diary notes end here, so I'm trying to remember this day on the 7th of May 2012. Longtemps. 
Woke up, saw hair and was rather delighted :D
We spent the morning ambling until Mr Brilliant had to go home. So we went with him across the many winding, bumpy roads, said a sad farewell, and returned home slightly uneasy to be welcomed by the smell of eggs. Not the best for our stomachs at that moment in time.
I think my favourite part of that day was just sitting around with Kat guitaring. We were even sat in the park guitaring at one point and two little boys came over and were very lovely.
WE MADE CAKES.
THEY WERE AWESOME.
It was Passover that evening, and we went, and I ate way too much food, drank way too much tea, and had way too much fun doing a dance round the church.
But yeah.
Good day.
We dyed my hair again, but this time we left it in over night....


Friday
PURPLE.
I washed my hair and soon discovered the a small segment was very purple. 
We went to visit Kat's lovely little nephew Leo today!! SO CUTE. And his parents are lovely :D I didn't really remember Kat's sister that well, as it must have been ages, but she's rather cool. 
So Kat and I basically spent the whole day cooing over Leo. We took him to the park and got a fantastic amount of 'omg young lesbian couple with a baby' looks. So proud XD But then he did his 'mum cry' and we took him home. So jah. Spent a lovely day with more of Kat's family, came home, sang songs and felt sad because I was leaving the next day. Also made another cake... cause we are cool like that XD


Saturday
Beardy and TheMiriam were supposed to be coming over so Kat and I got more fun with them before I left. In the end only Beardy could make it :/ Still good fun though :)
All too soon the time came for a very sad trip to Ipswich train station, very unhappy goodbyes on my part, and then one of the most melancholy train journeys I've ever taken. I do not  like saying goodbye to my Kat. At all. Spent the journey reminiscing over the last few days in my mind and dreading my return to the land of hills.
Arrived home, saw mum which was really nice, got a cup of tea without Kat which wasn't quite the same.
Slept. For a really long time.


All in all a fantastic week full of insanity and hilarity. I'll be coming back as soon as I can.


Kat - love to the ear lobes. I miss 'em.