Free as a bird

I love birds. If we get reincarnated, I hope to come back as a bird. I want the glorious freedom of flight.
I've always loved watching birds fly. The birds and the stars always kept me company on long journeys.
I have officially decided on the basis of my tattoo.
I'm going to get a bird tattoo when I'm old enough.
It will most like be this one:

Either on my back from shoulder to base of neck, or on my foot.
Might add the words: "Set yourself free" or "Free as a bird..." next to it somehow.


Anywho.
Are you going to get a tattoo?
Even if you aren't, what would you have, where and why?
Hatter xx


P.s. This is pretty cool. Looks kind of realistic!

If I got my tattoo on my shoulder/back, I would get this tattoo on my wrist, just so I had a reminder I could see.

Rant: Ears to listen, hands to hold.

I was told that was what mothers had.
I was wrong.
How can I ever tell her anything if I know she won't listen, or will just twist my words? 
How can she say that she wants me to tell her what's upsetting me, when she doesn't want to hear the answer?


I'm a little tired of her hypocritical, immature, frustrating, and frankly childish behaviour.


I actually spent my free writing a letter to my parents to tell them to get over themselves and grow up.
Short back story for those who don't know me: My parents split up when I (an almost-aborted accident) was 3 years old. At first it wasn't that bad. I grew up with my mum and (half-)brothers, and I had a lot of fun. I visited my Dad every few weekends. He got married and they had my half-sister. My brothers (12 and 14 years older than me) left home when I was 8, heading for Greece and New York. Not so fun. Mum had cancer, they came home. Mum recovered, they left again. We moved house. The relationship between my parents was getting steadily worse. Both sides were to blame, though neither would admit that. Instead they consistently act like immature little children. Their attitudes towards each other were and are ridiculous, and they never exactly hid that fact. At age 10, I realised I had to forget about my own childhood and grow up, because I couldn't imagine either of my parents rising to that challenge. Almost seven years later, I still feel like I have to be the responsible adult in our twisted three part family.


If I can find somewhere else to go, I might not come home tomorrow night. We both need space. I just want to get away from home in a vaguely responsible fashion. Just need to find a nearby friend that I can burden with myself for a night.


Rant over. Sorry.

A Happy Poem at Beardy's request.

The beginnings of a happy poem, posted because the Beardy one asked me to. Enjoy :) Love you all <3


"I want to be there when the sun goes down
We can wipe from our faces every frown
And dance with the music of this night
Holding each other close and tight.
You whose smile is warm and sweet
With you I will run down every street
Shouting up into the skies far above
Unashamed messages of pure peace and love."

Beauty in the written.

Approximately half an hour ago, I picked up the long overdue library book I had borrowed from school in January, and started reading. Until today, I had not really looked at it. The book is John Keats: The Poems. At first I read the beautifully written words in my head, but after a couple of lines I could not help but read aloud, joyous in such imagination despite my falterings over certain words and half-rhymes.
I think people should stop, and take more wonderment in the astonishing, imaginative world of creativity that we live in. Pause all the hustle and bustle. Take wonderment in the power of word and imagination.


Rant whatnot over.

A world of pure imagination.

<3
Naturally, I'm watching the old Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory.
If you want to see the fun-ness of the movie, here's the same song as above, but from the film:

There's also a fairly lovely Glee version, but three videos of the same song seems a bit much. It's here if you want it: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4oLDkTUW6go&feature=endscreen&NR=1


I would love to live in a world of pure imagination. In a way, I live in my own. But sometimes I wish we could also be shown other people's imagination through better means that books, etc. I'd love to see Kat's imagination one day. Or Zilla's.
From what I see in their writing, their imaginations seem beautiful and intriguing.


Quote of the day:
"We are the music makers, and we are the dreamers of dreams"
"A little nonsense now and then is relished by the wiser men"
"So shines a good dead in a weary world"


To GeniusRory: I hope you feel better when you go back to school. Just keep finding and exploring the little things that interest you :) All will be good. 

Because Kat did it.

1. Last Beverage→ Water.
2. Last phone call→ From mum.
3. Last text message→ From BeardyBen.
4. Last song→ Cigarettes and chocolate milk, Rufus Wainwright.
5. Last time you cried→ I don't know... Probably when my brother went back home to Cornwall on Tuesday.

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice → Yep
7. Been cheated on? → Not as far as I know
8. Kissed someone & regretted it? → Try not to, but yes I have.
9. Lost someone special?→ Unfortunately
10. Been depressed?→ Yes
11. Been drunk?→ Huh. Yeah. About that...

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
12. Violet
13. Blue
14. Green

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU:
15. Made new friends → Yes <3 You know who you are. Love <3
16. Fallen out of love → Don't think so.
17. Laughed until you cried → A lot :D
18. Met someone who changed you→ I think so. And I think the change was a positive one.
19. Found out who your true friends were→ Yup.
20. Found out someone was talking about you→ Yeah, but as Kat said people always are, so there's no point getting in a strop. Life is too precious.
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list→ This year... erm. Don't think so.
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life --> All of them...
23. How many kids do you want to have→ Erm. One? Or three? If three, two older boys and a girl. Because I had fun growing up with older brothers XD
24. Do you have any pets → I doooo. My Tigerlily the putty tat, and my brother's dog Baileys.
25. Do you want to change your name→ Nah.
26. What did you do for your last birthday→ Hung around with wonderful people.
27. What time did you wake up today → 6.15 -.-
28. What were you doing at midnight last night→ Listening to music and blogging, according to my internet history. A little worried as to why I couldn't remember that.
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for -> Exams to be over, and my birthday... expedition.
30. Last time you saw your father→ Erm. A couple of months ago? I think?
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life→ My attitude to work. I just can't sit myself down and revise. Other than that, nothing. Life is good.
32. What are you listening to right now → Cigarettes and Chocolate Milk.
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom → Yeah, several.
34. What's getting on your nerves right now? → Distances. And an odd feeling in my throat.
36. Whats your Zodiac sign?→ Leo.
39. Male or female→ That, I simply cannot answer. Female, you strange infuriating series of questions!
40. Elementary School→ Northampton High School for Girls, Barry Road Lower/Primary school.
41. Middle School → We don't have them here
42. High school → Bishop Stopford School (& Tresham)
43. Hair color → Blonde, with a small streak of purple <3
44. Height→ Short. As I am frequently told by my friends XD
46. Do you have a crush on someone? → Yup. We are not going to talk about it right now.
47. What do you like about yourself? → A lot more of late. My new outlook on life, my eyes and hair (in fact I'm pretty happy with my body in general), my music taste, and the majority of my personality. That and the fact that I'm not so scared any more, and I'm a little more experienced in ... lifeness... than I was a while ago.
48. Piercings?→ Two. More planned...
49. Tattoos → Not yet. 

50. Righty or lefty --> Righty.

FIRSTS :
51. First surgery → Nought.
52. First piercing → Earlobes.
53. First tattoo→ Not yet.
54. First best friend→ Simba or Alice Kilner <3
55. First sport you joined → Not exactly a sport, but ballet.
56. First pet → Bluebell the rabbit. Or perhaps the fish at my Dad's.
57. First vacation remembered → Probably Devon or Wales with ma famille.
58. First concert → Erm... Busted and McFly in Kent. So proud.
59. First crush--> Same as Kat, Orlando Bloom. Then this guy called Joe Rush. When I was like... miniscule.
60. First alcoholic drink→ Other than the occasional sip of mum's wine? Cider probably.

RIGHT NOW:
61. Eating → Nought
62. Drinking → Water
63. I'm about to → Go to bed
64. Listening to → Nothing
65. Waiting for → These questions to end
YOUR FUTURE :
66. Want kids? → Yes.
67. Want to get married? → Yes
68. Careers in mind? → Several, each as impractical as the last.

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE [or same, whatever] SEX?
69. Lips or eyes → I always notice eyes first so I'll go with them.
70. Hugs or kisses → Both. At the same time. It's fun.
71. Shorter or taller → Taller.
72. Older or Younger → Older probably. But not like old old. You know. Two-year radius ish.
73. Romantic or spontaneous → I like Kat's answer: "Spontaneity can totally be romantic"
74. Long hair or Short? Long-ish.
75. Tattoos or piercings→ Sure, just not... horrific amounts.
76. Sensitive or loud → I'd rather sensitive, but I don't want someone I have to tell to 'Man-up'.
77. Hook-up or relationship→ The latter.
78. Trouble maker or hesitant→ As long as they aren't a dickweed, a trouble maker can be a bit of fun. Too much hesitancy is... well... man up will you??

HAVE YOU EVER :
79. Kissed a stranger → Pretty much.
80. Skipped class?→ Stupidly frequently.
81. Lost glasses?→ In my house, or just on my face. Either way, yes.
83. Broken someone's heart → I wish I could definitely say no.
84. Had your own heart broken--> Possibly. If I have, I feel pretty mended right now.
85. Been arrested?→ Nope.
86. Turned someone down → Yes
87. Cried when someone died --> Yes
88. Liked a friend that is a girl? → Nope

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
89. Yourself → More now.
90. Miracles → Undecided
91. Love at first sight -> Undecided
92. Heaven → In a way
93. Santa Claus → No
94. Kissing on the first date? → Yes, because kissing is fun.
95. Angels → sometimes

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
96. Is there one person you want to be with right now? → Yes.
97. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? → No.
98. Do you believe its possible to remain faithful forever? → Some people can.
99. What's the one thing you cannot live without? → The combination of my imagination and good music.
100. Own question. I can't be bothered to think of one, so night!

X, the flying metal bird has been usurped.

There is a bouncy castle Stonehenge.
Genius.


Smile, X. Just imagine happily bouncing around on a Stonehenge bouncy castle :)

Change in the wind

Today was a really, really good day.
Felt like a change in the wind.
I mean, I've been having good days, but this was different.
This was brilliant :D
Thank you for the fun everyone :)
Love x


Zilla, you're right.
And you know I love you.
The Milkybar is on it's way :)

Peace and love, dudes.

Because the hippies love you, and so do I.
Hope everyone had a good day :)
<3

Distance...

I always used to wish I had wings so I could fly high in the sky. Then I could be everywhere I needed and wanted to be.
But it doesn't bother me as much any more. Sure, I miss people who are far away (whether that be half an hour or 10 hours away) but when we do get to see each other, it is far more special.
So while distance can sometimes be a pain, I'm not going to let it get me down. I love it here, and I can't be everywhere at once. I'll just have to wait until I get to spend extra-special moments with those just out of reach.

So I send my love, and I'll be waiting for the moment I see you again. If we both keep smiling, we'll have happy days to tell each  other all about when we see each other.


Love to my brothers. Other far away people too, but mostly my brothers. Damn I can't wait to see you again.


<3


Argh! Seeing my 'gay' bezzie The Fairy at school tomorrow! Well today, now. Excitement!