Big Red Update

Okay...
A LOT has happened since I last blogged:
Went to a party as Harley Quinn again, and had an epic time :D Also got to steal 'The Doctor's' Fez  XD XD XD
On Sunday evening I randomly decided I wanted to have a Comic Relief Party....
on monday I had very belated pancakes with my faith group.
On Wednesday afternoon I got my retainers and introduced J to my dance class.
Thursday was mostly uneventful as far as I can remember.
Friday was the most epic day in the history of Mankind. Ish. And therefore requires a whole new section:


FRIDAY
So, why was yesterday so epical?
Because it was Red nose day!!! I wore lots of red and had tons of fun with my mateys. The party I randomly thought of 4 days before went ahead, and was fantastic! We ate only red food, waxed my friend's legs, make-up-ised and nail varnished him, watched the show, shaved weird shapes in the beard of my friend's dad, did some karaoke and other EPIC stuffles, all for the sake of Red Nose Day :D Guess how much approximately 15 teens raised? ONE HUNDRED AND FIFTY FIVE FRICKIN POUNDS!! OH YEAH!!! XD
I'm so proud of my munchkins XD
Also FINALLY broke up with the bf... its a long, irritating and persistant story, so I'll give you the details later :P


Today was fairly unremarkable, so not much to say :P


Next time, as well as the break up, I'm guna go all philosophical and shiz and talk about war...
BE PREPARED ;)


Hattter xx


P.s. One of my friend's asked me to prom today. He was very sweet :P Let's call him... M. He said "Jenny, I can't understand why a girl like you has no prom date, so will you be mine? xx" N'YAWW. Apparently he's liked me for a while... we'll see what happens. (Though don't worry, I'm definitely not going into any kind of relationship for quite a while after this break up...

Teeth.

ZOMG. I got my braces off today :D :D :D
I have decided that it was definitely worth all the pain, as my teeth look - even if I do say so myself - utterly GORGEOUS.


Anyway... I am a happy bunny now.


OMG BUNNY.
I now can't say 'bunny' without thinking about The Mighty Boosh. It is the most excellent programme ever, and Noel Fielding will forever have a chunk of my heart ;)
For those who know what I'm on about, "Monkey hands... and frozen legs... the ultimate combination", (8) Pelt the rabbit in its big white face, pelt him, pelt him (8), 'I'm Old Gregg'
DO YOU LOVE ME?


(lol)


Hatter xx

Thursday 3rd March.

Feeling kinda meh-ish today.
Once again I find myself feeling like I don't belong... i am becoming restless amongst my friends and I just feel like something is... off...
I don't know.
Other than panicking about my deadline (which has been extended, thank the lord), I was fine when I came in this morning. Then it just kinda went down-hill from break-time onwards, until now.
Plus, I really wanted to talk to my twin, and she said we could go to the park after school, so I didn't stay on and carry on with my coursework. When we were walking home, she said she wasn't free... I don't mind, I just wish she'd said something before, so I could've been getting on with coursework all this time.
So... since I was feeling crap and would have no-one to talk to, I went into the shop and then went home the other way. I contemplated getting the public bus back to school, but it wouldn't have arrived there until 5, and that was too late. I had a strange urge to look the opposite way when I got nearer my house, and I saw that one of the horses was sticking its head over the wall and looking at me. I decided to go and 'talk' to it. All three of them ended up turning up for the chat. I feel a bit calmer after being with the horses...

This one leant right over the wall, and put its head right up to me, its nose brushing the neck of my coat. Anthropomorphic as this might sound, it really felt like a lovely gesture of comfort and love. That was the main part of being near the horses that helped. They're just so quietly accepting and loving, and are incredibly receptive to human emotions.

 

Aren't they gorgeous?

Anyway
Enough about depressing stuff.
I'm texting my boyfriend at the mo... I've decided to try and stay with him as long as possible. When I next see him, I will have a proper talk and see if we can make it work.
I think everyone deserves love, and so I should keep trying, because when we meet up, I do feel incredibly happy.
This is one of my favourite songs, and it tells part of my life quite well. Take a look, Boyce Avenue are amazing :D
I was just listening to that now, and I read a comment beneath the video which warmed my heart...

'Met a ton of these girls that have gone through what you're describing.. To the girls out there It sucks for the guys that really do love you. We try hard to convince you that we're different. Don't let the assholes out there make you believe you aren't worth it. You deserve love, it will find you.'

The guy is right, and it applies to boys as well. Never give up, because you DO deserve love, and it WILL find you...

Hatter xxx

OO-Rah.

Aye.


So......
MATHS EXAM. The maths exam was on Tuesday morning for an hour, and I actually think I did okay. There were some areas I wish I'd revised more, but I think it was okay. I HOPE it was okay, anyway.
Tuesday was also Zilla's birthday :D Epic times indeed. School was full of the usual hilarity, contributed to by our OMG-ness about Zilla's yearly ageing. I went straight to hers after to school, and we played the piano and chatted and stuffles, before having an old-ladies-gossip session. Epic XD So that was goooood. (Though I am incredibly jealous of her Slytherin scarf :-P). We went to the local pub for dinner with her 'rentals and sister, and t'was EXCELLENT. The food was incredibly nommish, and - despite being absolutely stuffed - Zilla's sister and I decided that we most certainly did have room for pudding :D I do not regret it, no matter how fat I feel now. That melt-in-the-middle chocolate pudding was well worth it :D


It's Wednesday now, and it was a fairly good day. We dissected a lung in science... YUM. 
I missed my buses this morning YAY!!!! We normally have two.... I ended up nicking some money from mum (who couldn't drive me in as she had to go to work), and getting the public bus. In the end, it was good I got that bus because my god-brother was on it and we walked together... T'was epically fun. <3 Ninja Cat <3 :D


Anywho.
I have decided I needed to come up with more ponderous thoughts than ranting on about my day. I haven't found one for today, but perhaps there shall be one to ponder tomorrow.


With my love until my next scribble,
Hatter
xx

Contact Juggler

So... I know I haven't posted much this week, but ho-hum-pig's-bum.

It's half term, and I've been attempting to revise for the maths exam we have on Tuesday D: I am so worried that I'm going to fail! I feel severely unprepared!!

It doesn't help that Tuesday also happens to be SOMEONE'S Birthday, and I have yet to decide what to get her D:

We've also got the Graphics coursework deadline next week, which I am also not ready for D: I am soooo dead.

But never mind.

Despite being aware that I am incredibly unprepared for my exams and deadlines, I went to London on Thursday. I went with 7 of my school friends (inc J and H) and we had an epic time :D

We arrived in London at about 10ish, and headed straight to Camden. We spent a major amount of time in there, and I bought myself another tatty little notebook XD After getting lunch there too, we headed down to the loos, and O.M.G.  There was majorly epical graffiti down there!

Jah. Told you so ;) Its so weird because the walk down to the loos was dark and creepy, and then you walked through some doors and BAM. Colour....

There were also lots of horsey statues everywhere :D

We left Camden and made our way to the Science Museum. We went on the Tube, and in one of the winding hallways, we found this guy!:

 

I can't say I was humongously interested in the museum... I've been there before so got kinda bored :/ We found a man with an epic boomerang thing though!!! That was fun. We also found this clever weird thingamabob.

Yes, that's right. It IS a statue made of penises, the shadow of which forms a double head. I know, MESSED UP.

So we left the science museum and headed down to Leicester Square, then Covent Garden. In Leicester Square, we ate at Bella Italia, which was rather good :D Very yummy Spaghetti Carbonara :D After that we got a Ben & Jerry's ice cream each from the cinema ;) Shneakyyyy as we never watched a film ;)

So yeah. We left for Covent Garden :D Of course, J checked the map and had figured the route, but some of the guys wanted to follow the signpost. In the end we asked a TOURIST who pointed us in the direction J had suggested. POWNAGE against the guys ;)

So.. Jah. Just before we reached Covent Garden, we saw this guy:

And OMG he was amazing :D He's a contact juggler, who performed a piece he'd been preparing for TWO YEARS. Dedication people :D Anyway, our little group watched transfixed with a hundred others as this dude messed with our minds using a little glass ball. He was absolutely fantastic :D i'd put the video up, but H hasn't sent it to me yet D:

He finished up and we chucked some money for him :D The others dragged me away (I wanted to talk to him) and we went into Covent Garden. The others had fun, but I was restless and couldn't get interested in anything since the contact juggler. I decided to go back to him, but he wasn't there anymore!!! :( 

I wish I'd found out his name :'(

We finished at Covent garden and went to get the tube to get the train home XD I shall never forget that trip - especially the contact juggler. I may have to write a story about him :D I might have also discovered a strange ambition to become a contact juggler :D OH!  And I am very proud to say, I have the same trousers as him in black!!!! XD His hair was in Dreadlocks and looked AWESOME. I've always kinda considered getting dreads myself... Mayhap I will one day O.o

Anyway. That was my Thursday :D

Thanks to my friends for an EPICAL trip to London.

Hatter xxx

P.s. Zilla, jekyll and hyde is MAJORLY confuzzling O.o but I'm working my way through it :D

P.P.S. I desperately want to read and watch Inkheart again <3 no idea why O.o

P.P.P.S One of my bezzies split up with her girlfriend last night, so J and I are taking Ice cream and rom coms over tonight.

Ach....

Half-term = officially wasted :/

HP :D

I didn't call him again. I'm kinda iffy about it now. I don't want to make the wrong decision...


SO. I may be obsessed with Harry Potter once again. Am having a Harry Potter marathon at the moment.. (THEY'RE SO ADORABLE IN PHILOSOPHER'S STONE)... And I have decided to create some chapter art for all the books. You can blame Ellygator's fabulous harry potter work on deviantART :D Check it out, its awesome XD
Anywho, jah.
Reading Stravaganza, City of Ships at the mo :P Good book :D
Half-term at the moment, maths exam first day back as well as Graphics deadline. :/
OUCH. So, obviously, I'm spending my life revising :/ lol.
Anyway

Much love

Until my next scribble
Hatter xx

Tomorrow.

So, the bf called me today. He apologised for not being able to meet up yesterday, and basically just talked to me. I can't remember if I said this in my last blog or not, but he's now grounded for a month, and we both have exams.... i.e. I probably won't see him til April.
When he said that, I just said: "And how long has it been since I last saw you?" He said 'I don't want to answer that.... too long.'
"Yes, too long... April..." Was my muttered response. So yeah. What d'ya think of that?
I got SO CLOSE to ending it, I even started to say it, but he had to go, so I couldn't. -.-
I started to say how I can't do this any more, as, although I love him, I can't keep not seeing him for months on end.


I have decided to call him and do it tomorrow. I obviously can't do it face to face - he's grounded, remember? -.- - and so a phone call is the next best thing. It has to be tomorrow because we have a week left til the end of half-term, and then its exams. So at least that way we have a week to sort ourselves out before we face people/do exams. I know I will probably need a massive tub of Ben & Jerrys and a really awesomely huggable best friend. But i should be fine. Give me a day of moping and ice cream eating, then I'm done and can focus on everything else.


I really hope that this is the right thing to do... Once its done, I know there will be no turning back.


Hatter xx

Purple Pjs are genius XD

Basically, I posted a question on an advice site called puplepjs.com, and got this reply.


Daniel says...

I think you need to think about this objectively. While the two of you are technically "boyfriend and girlfriend" by labels, you are certainly not dating by any measure of the word. He avoids you, he doesn't hang out with you, he makes up lame excuses for why he can't hang out with you, and he shows no interest in changing any of this. Given the regularity of his behavior and the extents to which he has gone to avoid you previously, I put the odds of his stepmom being the reason the two of you can't hang out somewhere between "zero" and "none at all."

When a couple is truly committed to one another, they make time for one another. It's a two-way street...each person wants to be involved with the other and one of the people isn't doing all the work. In this case, you're the only one doing any work and there are no signs of effort or desire from him whatsoever. I'm not sure what he's getting out of "dating" you, but he must like the "in a relationship" status on Facebook because that's honestly the only benefit he could possibly be deriving from your so-called relationship. Dump him before you lose any more sleep over him.

~

I think 'Daniel' may be a genius. I won't go into details about my bf's fail tonight, but i ended up going cinema with 3 of my bezzies (2 of them are together <3, the other is probably my best guy bezzie ever). Basically, as much as I honestly love/like my boyfriend, I can't keep not seeing him. I don't see how we can make it work, and I think it's just best that I end it sometime soon. As much as I love him, can we really stay together without seeing each other? I don't think so. i've tried, and I'm filled with doubts. So... yeah. I guess Daniel's got it right.

Hatter xx

P.s I had an excellent time with my bezzies tonight :D I heart them forever <3

Surprise Surprise...

Hah. Turns out the bf is grounded and can't make tonight. Joy. And its his own fault. And I can't find a replacement.